An intern at a hospital tells the darkly funny story of how he saved someone's life for the first time

The Real Doctor Will See You ShortlyCrown PublishersThis story comes from ‘The Real Doctor Will See You Shortly: A Physician’s First Year.’

This post is an excerpt from The Real Doctor Will See You Shortly: A Physician’s First Year by Matt McCarthy.
During McCarthy’s first shift as an intern at the Columbia University Medical Center in New York City, he and another doctor called Baio were monitoring sick patients, hoping to keep them alive through the night.

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We quickly arrived at the bedside of an elderly woman on a ventila­tor.

She was so frail and thin that you could make out the individual muscle fibres in her neck.

“What happened?” Baio asked a nurse standing at the bedside. Be­fore she could answer, Baio turned to me. “Matt, disconnect her from the ventilator.”

A team of nurses went to work on the woman. “She just flatlined,” one of them said.

I looked at the breathing machine and my stomach turned. I sud­denly had an overwhelming urge to move my bowels. Disconnecting a patient from a ventilator was a scenario I had only read about in medi­cal ethics textbooks. Terri Schiavo came to mind.

“Disconnect,” Baio repeated calmly while reaching a hand under her gown and onto her groin, searching for a pulse.

I tugged the breathing tube away from the ventilator, but nothing happened. I tried again but still nothing. A nurse half my size lunged in front of me and pulled the breathing tube off of the ventilator in one quick motion as Baio rattled off a series of questions while assigning each nurse a specific role in the resuscitation. Someone began squeez­ing a bag of oxygen into her throat as I rapidly glanced back and forth at the flurry of activity, looking for something to do. Baio briefly closed his eyes while again feeling under the gown. “No pulse. Matt, start chest compressions.”

I positioned myself on the left side of the bed and placed one hand over the other. I had performed CPR dozens of times on Janet, the Mass General crash test dummy, but never on a human before. A mo­ment of terror shot through me as I pondered the implications of my 190-pound body descending upon this 87-pound woman.

Baio sensed my hesitation. “Just accept that you’re going to break her ribs. Just do it. She’s dead. Let’s go.”

With the first thrust, ribs cracked as easily as uncooked spaghetti.

“Aah,” I muttered. With my second compression, more ribs cracked. By the third compression, her chest cavity had become soft and I could feel the sharp edges of broken ribs under her skin.

To the nurse beside him, Baio said, “I will need one round of epinephrine and one round of atropine.” Placing his hands in sterile gloves, he reached for a large needle and again mashed on her groin, searching for a pulse. “Slow down, Matt, you’re pumping too fast. One hundred beats a minute.”

He began to insert a large tube into her pelvis.

“Staying alive,” he said.

“Yeah, she is . . .” I said, becoming short of breath.

“No, she is dead. But the song ‘Stayin’ Alive,’ remember? Do com­pressions to that beat.”

Saturday night feverYouTubeJohn Travolta in Saturday Night Fever, featuring ‘Stayin’ Alive’ by the Bee Gees.

I didn’t remember because I’d been in the restroom earlier that day while the team discussed that chest compressions should be performed roughly one hundred times per minute. In the heat of the moment, it’s nearly impossible to keep track of the pace, but the Bee Gees’ song “Stayin’ Alive,” which happens to play at 103 beats per minute, could be used to help keep the pace.

“Stop chest compressions,” Baio said firmly.

I stopped and caught my breath. The patient’s chest was sunken where I’d been pounding away. We looked at the defibrillator monitor. I desperately wanted to do something else, anything. I was not ready to see the second patient I’d touched die in front of me after I cracked her body open performing chest compressions.

“The monitor shows a heartbeat,” I said between breaths.

Baio placed his hand on her neck. “No pulse. Resume compres­sions.”

The heartbeat I’d seen was not really a heartbeat, rather something called pulseless electrical activity. Her heart was spasming as electri­cal currents raced across cell walls; to the inexperienced eye (mine) it would appear like beats on a heart monitor. But without a pulse there was not sufficient blood flow to the body. Baio was right: CPR had to continue.

I resumed my assault on her chest cavity as a nurse injected one medication after another into her. The sharp edges of her broken ribs felt like they were about to slice through her skin.

Baio kept his eyes trained on the monitor. “Hold compressions, and Matt, feel for a pulse.”

I placed my hand on her neck and felt nothing. My heart sank. “I don’t — “

Baio simultaneously felt the other side.

“Oh, yep” — he smiled — “there’s a pulse. Congratulations. You just saved your first life.”

He moved my hand several inches higher, where indeed, there was a vigorous, bounding pulse.

“Holy s—!” I said as we locked eyes.

“Holy s—, indeed. Now, put her back on the ventilator.”

This was it. After years of preparation, I had just helped bring someone back from the dead. My heart raced, and I could feel my own pulse pounding through my neck. This was the sensation I had been seeking, the one that was missing for me in surgery.

Granted, I had done exactly what Baio told me to do, and it had involved damaging the patient in ways that seemed to create a new set of problems, but she had pulled through. She was stayin’ alive, and would live to see another day with her spouse, kids, whomever.

Medicine was messy, but it was f—ing incredible. As we stood together at the bedside, I looked over at Baio with a measure of pride. He seemed to sense this.

“You know,” he said, patting me on the back, “there is nothing more rewarding than bringing a ninety-five-year-old demented woman with widely metastatic lung cancer back to life. Well done.”

Saturday night feverSteve Finn/Getty ImagesA scene from a stage performance of ‘Saturday Night Fever’ in London in 2004.

Reprinted from THE REAL DOCTOR WILL SEE YOU SHORTLY: A PHYSICIAN’S FIRST YEAR Copyright © 2015 by Matt McCarthy. Published by Crown Publishers, an imprint of Penguin Random House LLC.

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