Justin Bieber opens up about abusing Xanax: 'It got dark'

BG015/Bauer-Griffin/GC ImagesJustin Bieber is opening up about his life.

Justin Bieber is speaking openly and honestly about his past struggles, including drug abuse.

The 24-year-old singer opened up about abusing Xanax, a drug used to treat anxiety and panic disorders, around 2013 in a new cover story for Vogue.

“I found myself doing things that I was so ashamed of, being super-promiscuous and stuff, and I think I used Xanax because I was so ashamed,” he told the magazine. “My mum always said to treat women with respect. For me that was always in my head while I was doing it, so I could never enjoy it.”

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He continued: “Drugs put a screen between me and what I was doing. It got pretty dark. I think there were times when my security was coming in late at night to check my pulse and see if I was still breathing.”

When Bieber was arrested for drag racing in Miami Beach in January 2014, police documents said he was under the influence of alcohol, pot, and Xanax.

The singer didn’t go to rehab, but that same year, he moved into the New Jersey home of Hillsong pastor Carl Lentz, a leader at the megachurch Bieber attends. Vogue described his time there as an “informal detox” where he played sports, interned for Lentz, and focused on his faith. Bieber says he drinks but hasn’t done drugs since.

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Hailey Bieber (formerly Baldwin), the pop star’s wife, said she agonized during that period in his life, but is proud of her husband for getting through it.

“I grieved very intensely over the whole situation,” she said. “I just wanted him to be happy and be good and be safe and feel joy. But I’m really proud of him. To do it without a program, and to stick with it without a sober coach or AA or classes – I think it’s extraordinary. He is, in ways, a walking miracle.”

Hailey and Justin have known each other since 2009 and dated in 2015 and 2016. They reunited in June 2018 and quietly wed at a courthouse in September.

Read the full interview in Vogue.

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