- Britney Spears said she is celebrating the holidays early this year in an Instagram post.
- Spears expressed she is afraid of making a “mistake” that could revoke her freedom.
- A hearing scheduled for November 12 will determine the fate of the pop star’s conservatorship.
Britney Spears opened up about her fears amid the ongoing legal battle concerning her conservatorship on Friday in a lengthy Instagram post.
The 39-year-old singer shared that she is “celebrating Christmas way early this year,” in an attempt to find “more joy” amid her 13-year conservatorship.
Spears stated she was happy at the prospect of her newfound freedom, but was admittedly worried about making a “mistake” that could make it disappear.
“I’ll just be honest and say I’ve waited so long to be free from the situation I’m in … and now that it’s here, I’m scared to do anything because I’m afraid I’ll make a mistake!” Spears wrote under a photo of a decorated Christmas tree in her living room.
“For so many years, I was always told if I succeeded at things, it could end … and it never did!!!” the pop star continued.
“I worked so hard, but now that it’s here and getting closer and closer to ending, I’m very happy, but there’s a lot of things that scare me!”
She then called out the paparazzi as one thing that scares her while she’s driving, remarking that she doesn’t like it when “they try to scare me and jump out like they do … it’s like they want me to do something crazy!
Spears mentioned that she just started driving again four months ago for the first time in over a decade, decrying the “system” that allowed her conservatorship.
“I haven’t done anything to be treated the way I have for the past 13 years,” she said. “I’m disgusted with the system and wish I lived in another country!”
The singer shared that due to her complicated feelings she will indulge in the holiday spirit. “I believe any reason to find more joy in life is a good idea … and it’s no secret that I’ve been through it in the past … so I might have to do things a little differently from now on!”
“Lord have mercy on my family’s souls if I ever do an interview!” she continued.
Spears concluded the caption by claiming she intends to stay “clear of the business…which is all I’ve ever known my whole life.”
Spears has been fighting to end her conservatorship, which began in 2008 and allowed her father, Jamie Spears, control over her personal life and finances.
Her father was suspended as the conservator of her estate last month, with the next hearing scheduled for November 12.